UNTOLD LOVE STORY !! (NOT EVERY STORY HAVE HAPPY ENDING)

Engineering is not just a degree, it holds lot more. It teaches how to survive even in worst situation, it will bring perfection on you regarding lots of aspects. It will teach, how bad situation can be and fortune is you can deal even with that. You will have lots of experience  regarding bunking,  making fun of friends, studying last night just to pass exam, no any desire to top the class or something more, completing assignments sitting on last bench hiding from lecturer and lot more and words would not be able to describe all those.

Engineering was my fortune but not her. Having girls in engineering is like having trees over desert. We were not lucky enough to have girls on our class, leave beautiful girls that would just be a joke to laugh out loud. And being a computer engineer it was responsibility or just a formality I don’t know well but engineers used to visit institute for training to enhance their programming skills as per their choice like java, android, python bla bla.  And my preference was java.

Whom have guessed that that java class will make somebody to code on my heart.

Those codes were not easy to compile and wait for output. Such codes take lot of time to compile.  And tragedy is coder is somebody else but makes you to compile it and wait until you get output from her. You should be able to convert your heart's code to her heart readable codes unlike assembler in programming. It was not easy to code her heart's readable codes. It would take lot of time to create such codes and it was not guaranteed that those codes would compile and output will come as per your wish.

Lets not confuse it with programming terms and begin it in simple flow…..

Being a young man I was quite lazy man, I think I can not pick I was young and lazy at same time. Though I was but life was still on simple platform. Repeated daily routine getting up early in a morning attending boring classes roaming around institute and sticking with laptop returning home being a lazy bone and sleeping late night. This may sound quite boring life but it was interesting at the same time.

After classes I was at institute with friends for java programming and to my surprise there were some girls for java.

Are you crazy? 
Can engineering have this much beautiful girls? 
Am I day dreaming?

And instantaneous is not just word bounded to velocity and acceleration but also for falling of boys in love with beautiful girl too. Boys can fall in love with beauty at anytime and anywhere.

So don’t you think I fell in love with her?

Of course yes man I have heart too.

Now you have guessed I went upto her and introduced myself then admired her beauty and she may have flipped her hair with little smile on her face and thanked me for that.

Do you really think I'm movie actor and do such filmy stuffs?

Its hard to say hi and you are thinking of dramas.

And at this moment codes were being written in my heart….

Was she carrying keyboard?

What?
 Are you crazy she wrote all those even her intention were not to do so. Leave intentions that poor girl even don’t know that she is more than beautiful and anybody can fall in love with her.

Now I felt like compiling all these codes and told my friends "guys you will soon get sister in law"

(vauju ho tero aakha tala gar)

It was not just with her that I have fallen in instantaneous love but she was completely different than other. Her innocent face those eyes and her fascinating glow how can I explain to you, well everything can't be explained use some of your never used brain and begin journey of imagination.

My friends will not take seriously I knew those assholes will make fun of me if I told them that I have fallen truly this time. Let's not tell them now, they will know slowly, when I will convert these codes to acceptable codes. Then our coding started as usual.

Are you still on such types of codes? Oh man now I'm talking about programming.

That day went on and it was to time to return to home sweet home actually.

I was on micro bus day dreaming of her wait it was evening dreaming. I don’t know how much I will dream at night. What if I have asked her name?

Now I would easily search her on facebook and talk with her. Ok I should try to get her name and if possible number too. I should not waste my time and make her own.

Wait….Make her own?

I mean……I mean we can be much more than friends.

You don’t even know her and look at your day dreams.

I don’t care but what I see is minimal chance of her being in relation, innocent girl like her are not interested on being in relations.

Oh if so you are Tom Cruz to fascinate her within a minute?

I didn’t meant that all I'm saying is it's easy to score goal in post without keeper.

If that post is not with keeper then that just a bar and net and that will be consider as kick rather than goal.

You are being pessimistic man, here I'm dreaming of her and you are discouraging me.

Ok keep on day dreaming!!

 This was all in my minds on those days. It was more than a week went on being on same class but I could not speak to her, leave of speaking I could not find her name even. I will never be able to code on her heart too if everything went on like this. No matter how strong boys are considered but they are quite weak, coward rather in case of approaching their crush. So I thought I would not be able to find myself because of my fear I should rather told my friends to find her name.

I checked my purse and saw some of money because I knew they(friends)  will not do anything like that for me without any treat for them. After returning from their I told them that girl really fascinate me, she has disturbed me from very first day, I think I have fallen for her.

And that was celebration for them because they could finally ask me for treat and they did the same. But I said you guys need to help me to find her name. I will do that bro you just feed us today. And we went to eat some actually they took to me feed themselves and momo was their on demand food. Now you should have realized they were Nepali (counntry of Mt. Everest, Buddha, brave Gurkha). After that it was time to head for home.

Don’t worry bro I will find her name, one of my friend uttered. He was quite perfect in such matters. But on that day due to disturbance in electricity supply there were only few computers in use. Her friends were sitting on pair she was still not occupied and to have dance in chance I went there and asked if I can company. She said ok nothing more than that and concentrated on mentor. I was thinking of something to speak but was blank at the same time and I could not disturb her too. So I just concentrated on mentor. After giving some clues he went and left us on our own. And she asked me question regarding some terms. Again I started dreaming that I should company her while exiting with her but I knew my friends well what they will do.

Why girls are selfish? If they have something to ask they will speak and ask then how they can damn care us. No one will ever understand women and nobody did before. After that class we were heading towards home. Assholes asked me did you asked her name?

No I could not.

Wtf !! You were with her about an hour but could not ask her name?

 Shame on you brother shame on you, you insulted us.

What if I have asked her a bit detail about her. What if she refused to say? These kind of questions were bothering me.

When will I ask her and speak to her.

Now I used to check my watch more than 24 times when it will strike 4 and I will see her.

My days were quite long. Why this time is this much slow. Finally it was 4pm and I was praying for same electricity issue like yesterday. Everytime electricity will not favor.

What if she smiled looking at me because we were on same table yesterday. To my day dream she didn’t even turned her head towards me leave smile. Girls will come and go concentrate on future man I concealed myself and concentrated on java. One of my friend was next to her and I was hoping he will do something for me. That class went without any gain regarding her.

While we were returning, are you willing to recharge my phone if I told her name?

What? Do you asked her?

Yoo man I did. Agree to my term first.

Ok I will tell me her name.

Her name is …………

What?

Her name is one of from that of goddess of Hindus.

What should I guess now?

DURGA!! 

How should I thank him.

I reached home any without any further delay I searched her on facebook ….

Finally I found her.

But how secured that is neither I can request for nor I can see her any photos. I checked everything whatever I was allowed to and that night went on…..

On other day I sat next to her…

Excuse me, do you have tutorial that mentor provide on java?

I was like is that her voice? Yes of course it was her.

Yup, do you need it?

Yes can you please send me that pdf?

Yes of course but how?

Message me in facebook.

I don’t know your name how could I?

Tell me your username I will message you then send me.

Ok and your name is?

Durga !!

I could not ask her surname. And we devoted our rest time on coding.

And after returning to home I was waiting for her message. I waited till 11pm and my hope for today was about to die then suddenly she messaged me. I used to think these kind of moment will be limited to movie only but I was wrong. And I send her that tutorial.

Thank you.

You welcome.

So I think you are quite focused on study and career?

Yaa I'm indeed everyone is don’t you?

I don’t think I fall in that category.

Anyway thank you again I need to go now.

Why girls are always on hurry? I thought.

Ok I replied.

I think story has gone quite long so I will narrate shortly….

After those days I used to talk her a bit and I asked about sending friend request.  She denied saying she can't. But I started following her. Her eyes and innocent smile was thunderstorm to my heart. I was a bit close and because of our course resemblance it was easy for me to talk. But I never dared to interpret my feelings to her I was scared to loose her.

How stupid I was, I was scared of losing her though she was never mine. Was that a symptoms of love?

Yes it was. I used to dream of her, check her profile, see her photos and wonder of her. She was everywhere though I was none to her. And after our class was over, one day she asked me of notes. I said I have and will provide them then we agreed to meet and I asked her phone number.

I have her name, a bit detail, her number but could not approach her. We have just normal gossips. I could not make her feel that I love her. I have told all these to one of my brother from different mother. He asked about her and checked her profile.

Are you crazy? She makes trip to celebrate her birthday, prefer cafes just to study. Will you be able to maintain her status? I know she is pretty and beautiful but she not our kind brother. Don’t make yourself to fall on pit because of her.

What could I do brother, my heart pounds for her.

If that is case meet her confess everything.

 I can’t do that, I don’t have that much gut.

If so let me handle it and talk to her. I will confess your feelings regarding her.

I agreed.

He explained everything to her to my surprise she was like are you kidding me? You must be joking and bla bla.

Wtf was that? How easily she could say without understanding my feelings and in addition she told she have boy friend and sent his photos.

And there was nothing left to argue or ask. So I blessed her and promised her will not disturb her.

My feelings, my day dreams, my happiness, my excitement everything went on vain. Everything got over just in 2 minutes.

And in this way my one sided love story started with me and ended with me. Now she is in foreign for further study……!!

Now what are looking for story has ended. Not every story ends with happy ending!!